Great day eight!!!

Hello Beautiful World,
I am in love with being love to my body. It feels really good! Today I noticed I haven't had soda in 8 days and I didn't even notice....which isn't like me. Normally when I try to stop drinking soda I feel terrible...bad caffeine headaches. I think it must be the yummy food I am eating because it is the only thing different and I didn't get any headaches...yay! Activities over the past few days have included poi spinning, hooping, walking, lifting Christmas trees, spinning in circles, oh and contact dancing with Vallie, and doing a jig to keep from peeing my pants because of laughing to hard.
I have been talking a lot about how great eating good foods and being more active is, but I don't want to give the impression that it has been without challenges. Earlier this week was particularly challenging for me. I was heart woken, as a dear friend likes to say, instead of heart broken. I think its a great description because nothing is broken. My heart is beating just fine, still just as capable of loving, actually it feels full of love. Being heart woken just keeps me very present to this experience...feeling it all and being very aware. Being committed to being love to my body during this time helped me recognize some patterns I seem to follow during an upset. I noticed my first reaction after being heart woken is to stop eating. Initially my stomach is just to knotted up to eat but even after hunger returns my reaction is to withhold nourishment from my body. I think its because when I feel like everything in my life is spinning, shifting, and evolving...eating is something I have control over. It is so easy for me to take that to a really unhealthy place. So the challenge for me this week was to keep loving...no matter what is happening just keep loving. I think in doing so I shifted something in my life. I'm not that girl that hurts herself because someone else has hurt her. I'm the girl that loves...herself, her life, her friends & family, and her body :)
I'm actually really excited about my life at the moment. It seems like everything is moving out of the way, which leaves me with infinite possibilities. I can create anything in my life and that excites me! I'm happy that one of the things I am creating is a healthier me. Which brings me to another commitment I have been afraid to declare out loud...but no more. I am going to quite smoking before the end of this 30 day challenge! A friend of mine told me she was inspired by this blog and was going to quite smoking and I thought "damn, that means i have to quit too".
I can't fully be loving my body and be smoking...I just wasn't willing to admit that out loud before and I think I was afraid to fail. I'm still a bit nervous about it but excited to be free at the same time. I'm going to use the momentum of the energy of change flowing through my life. I'm leaning full force into the discomfort...pushing through into something new, unknown, and perfect in every way.


What would love do...love. Whats the weather like...love. Whats 5 +5...love. No matter the question...love is the answer-- Thanks Jon Marro